hello.

A life without cause is a life without effect.

oh well, today was pretty boringg. supposed to get a new phone today but my pay is delayed. pffttkkkk~ so, didn't get anything. went mustafa ctr with mum & Haady. I left earlier to meet Akeem, Shah & Fana but Akeem was very late. Till I had to go off for an urgent family gathering without meeting him today! another, pffftkkkkk~!! So, head of to Harbourfront to meet the family. Got to know that Mum wanted to head off to Ipoh cause a blood tied passed away. So, sent her off.

There are Harbourfront, I went to Vivo City uh & met the dancers! YAY!
Oneski, Chip, Zym, the rest of RSC was there. Abang C.A & Kak Reella was there too but they butt off earlier. We were at Vivo till late, we missed the last train so had to take the bus. Was shagged, didn't know why. Well, maybe it was because I stayed up till 5.30AM yesterday till my elder brother, Khalil got back. There was a little tension between my mum and him yesterday & I was worried. I think its the sibling thingy. Can't explain! LOL.
So, Abang Khalil got back at 5.30AM & I fell asleep soon after. Woke up at 10am but didn't feel like getting out of bed. Watched 'Life Size' on Abang's portable DVD player in my room on my comfortable single sized bed. haha! About 2hrs later, I came out of the room & got to know my dad is going to the dentist! Heee!
Mum & Haady was out early morning, as usual. Aliff was sitting infront of the computer. Abang has gone off to work!
Did my chores & got out of the house.

Was pretty bored when I met Fana & Shah at town. But at VivoCity, the dancers rocked my panties! Had great fun. Really. Whoa, I reminincse the times when we were all in a crew dancing our heads off but not anymore. I don't dance. Well, I can't.
So, I'll stick with rapping yaw. I met my oldoldoldoldoldoldoldoldoldold friend, NAJIHAH! She's so tembam! Can bite your cheeks baybeh! YAY! What miracle. Luckily you saw Wan ehh. Lucky guy there. Btw, you look perfectly fine babe. Really, no joke. Tembam rocks you. Serious! Eh, I can read your mind ok.

Anyways people, some of you might have heard that Sheerz & Fatalitee Phlow was on Mediacorp radio station, RIA 89.7FM on Friday night, 9PM. Thanks Wiya for dropping the lovely msg to Abang KC! Thanks to all who tuned in too!
Now, support Sheerz! You can request our songs, Hold Me Down & Baby I Swear on RIA 89.7FM now! Our songs are also up on Myspace & AMP @ Channel V. Baby I Swear is available for downloads on Myspace!
Show us your support babies.

One final reminder before I head the covers! Sheerz will be performing at Republic Poly on 17 November! Tickets sold at S$6. Time TBC. Check my MSN nickname to find out. I'll tag the time on the tagboard soon. You poeple know I can't log on the internet on weekdays right? another one, pfftkkkkK~!!
whuteva; said like its spelled.

So, that's about all for now. Oh, fuck the movies. 30 Days Of Night is M18! UGH.
Naseb lahhh, Sara...  -________-"


Take Care!
Much love!

p/s: Thanks Wan. HOTHOTHEAT!

hello.

Love is blind. Friendship tries not to notice.

If you want me in your life, you'll find a way to put me in it. Stop dropping me emails, messaging me on Myspace & offline IMs. Its not that I do not appreciate that you are willing to befriend me but don't you think its a little too weird to suddenly leave your mobile number with someone you just saw a picture of in Myspace?

What more, call me bambi eyes.
Oh, yes .. Bambi's eyes are adorable. Thank you for associating me with an animal.
I never really liked Bambi when I was a kid anyway.. I prefered Casper.

Don't you people think its cute? When he turned into human, ouhhh! I love that scene. Back when I was a kid.. haha!!
Here's another thing, you might wanna add on to your "note to self list", praises don't get to girls heart immedietly. At least not mine.
I appreciate you commented my appearance & that you like it but that doesn't mean i like you just because you said "those words". Its NORMAL. I get that alot. Not with an intention to brag though. So, save ur lines for someone worth it. Definitely not me.
Sorry if im being harsh but you were being too open. & I just think that someone should tell you, you are. So, u're welcomed.

Oh people, I'm like soo bored. Had a tension with mum. She kept asking me to get off the pc earlier on but I didn't. Till we had a guest over. Before they arrived, she was getting ready to welcome them with the proper clothings and all when she suddenly shouted at me something no daughter ever want her mum to say. Yes, action speaks louder than words but its those words that lingers in your thoughts. It just breaks me mum. Really. I never admit I hated you. I never hated you. I love you but sometimes both of us just fail to see. I don't know how to relate to you at times because you were always busy with something and someone else. I feel left out sometimes but I try to understand. I know I've been showing less attention at home compared to my activities outside and I'm sorry! I just needed someone to show me the way I should be. People have always been saying I'm boisterous, how do you think that made me feel? Having my own uncles and aunties saying that, indirectly or directly at me! It hurts ok! I've been living my whole life with 3 boys. Putting up with all their dirty funny jokes & listening to all the pain my brother has gone through. I picked up from them. Why are my friends mostly boys? Because I click better with them. I have "gfs" here and there. But my real girlfriends are just like me. Loud, hyper & arrogant on the outside. We are wild.

Ask yourself, why? Why am I like this? Why did I turn out like this?

I'm not blaming you for not giving me a sister. "I don't think you could live with one" - You say when I asked you why I didn't have a sister. Well, this is how I'm living with 3 brothers. Whom should I learn from? Who should I take for as an example? My role model at home? You.
But lately, have you been much of a role model? How much have we been talking to each other? How many laughters have we had? I love you mum. Don't go. Don't leave me. I don't hate you. I'm sorry.

I miss you.

No people, my parents aren't divorced & I'm living with my family of 6.

hello.

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one.

alright. I'm really sorry because Ohh Ahh is not able to playback. It played once before I logged off for the weekdays last week. Thanks Fakir for addressing the matter to me. Here's a new song for those beautiful ears to listen.

Its Sheerz's very own, Hold Me Down. YAY!



I really hope you guys love it yarh. Lyrics will be posted soon.

Oh well, the week has been good. I'm no longer working at SEAB, the PSLE department has finished extracting papers and all & the A/O'Lvls have enough workers already. The logistics on the other hand, only want boys. -__-"
So, off I am from SEAB! It was a great experience. Given a chance, I'd do it again.
I'll be job hunting pretty soon, anyone interested in tagging along?
Be sure you're 16, or at least turning 16 by Nov. & most prolly, I'll be job junting at IMM. Interested? Beep me.

Bakyah, kau is a must ok? Shyda, kalau nak; beeeeeep!

Anyway, "a" .. my philosophy of life is,

"when you find yourself in a situation, believe that you'll find a way out of it and make things right. cs God will only put you in it if He believes you can deal with it."

its something I always tell myself if I'm crying really bad or the situation is so bitter even sucking lemons won't help! I said that to my dad one day when he was on the verge of quitting his job. The next day, he told me he's gonna give the job another week. And till now, my dad is still at his same working place. All you gotta do, is believe in something and it'll come true.
God can hear your wantings, you don't have to say it. Cs who elses gives you the 'wants' if its not urself. & rewind, who made "urself" if its not God. So, He knows best.

Just believe. You don't always get what you want, you get better. If not, then its just not meant for you. If that happens, quit sulking! Build a bridge and get over it.

LOVES.

p/s: Happy 18th Birthday Hariz!

hello

Love demands infinitely less than friendship.

New song up!
Ohh Ahh by Danity Kane.


I love the song! Click here for lyrics!

hello

Life withougt a friend is death without a witness.

yeahhh. the title says soo.. i'll list down my darlings who pleases me!
first off, another cute boy! Islam's younger brother; THAQIF!
(islam, pinjam adik kau blh?)


isnt he just cute? Ohh, he please me with a picture of himself. Eh, thanks Islam!

& this is Islam, the 16 year old brother.
muker kau kene dikechikkan. tkmo kecik hati ahhh.

followed by, Paramore! Hayley is sooo talented!


amazing how she sings her lungs out. pleased pleased. very pleased!
Josh is cute.

Oh oh, yesterday raya with secondary school friends were FANTABULOUS!
Headed home pretty late. After 1am! Atiqah's mum cooked Soto and its better than delicious! OOOOH! I love it.
*I'm still craving for Syugah's mum's fried chiciken!*
Aniwaes, a friend told me I posses good thoughts and life quotes and my philosophy of life is pretty wise. I don't know about that.

You see, nothing works if its one sided - what most people say, right?
But magically, tolerance can make something work one sided. Ponder that.

Friend, I thank you for seeing the value in me but you've got to look into yourself before I can take your word about me.

take care.

LOVE!

hello.

sweetie, you can't fight fate. whatever happens, happens.

kill me if i'm lying to you but kill yourself if you deny this kid is not cute!



NO! i will NOT resize the picture to a thumbnail size! bcs its just tooooooooooooo adorable!
stooopid fooolish, me! AHHHHHHHHH! such ubber cuteness. I was pretty fucked, then fauzi changed his MSN display picture to Aqil's picture and i asked him to send it to me. When i viewed it, i SMILED FROM EAR TO EAR!

I LOVE KIDS! there, i've said it again.
i'm no fcking peadophile bumbos. (bakyah, tkmo terase k? HAH!)

fauzi said, aqil smiles and giggles when he sees people. gossh, i soo wanna see him do that when he sees me. ouh wait, if he sees me. shucks.

shuddup prankheads.

ok, off to bed!

hello.

 

DANGG!
yeah, im tired baby. i'm all weared out. i've been having the 3 to 4hrs sleep a day to re-charge for a whole tiring day the next!

 A word to describe me now is : LETHARGIC!

House to house for Raya was fun! Lorry again, haha. Driver was crazy ok? My butt aches a little bit but I'll be fine. Second day raya with DSC was a little more laid back. Yesterday was superrr "boisterous". There were only four girls yesterday & two girls today. Me & Boyf wore Red yesterday and White today. Syugah, Fakir, Me & Boyf wore white and I was the only one who got home in WHITE.  LOL.
The foood was superb! I loved it. Khai's house was the last we visited today and he served fried bee hoon but none of us were really that hungry, so we didn't finish it all up though it was delicious. I only had a small portion for myself.
I reached home at midnight yesterday & fell asleep in less than a minute (i think!). Reached home earlier today, 10pm.

Oh gossh, work tomorrow!
Report at 0830h, lunch at 1030-1130 then, wait for another three hours before the "WORK" comes in. Like, hello! If work begins at 1430, I can report at 1330h rite?! Give me the sleep I deserve, please.. LOL.
But, I think its all good. Rauzan always wanted to get paid for "chilling out" and I AM getting paid just to chill around.. $5.60/hr.  Cooolio.

Alrighty, the slideshow is back up & I changed the song to Babylove by Nicole Scherzinger. I love the song! Very nice.  Click here for the lyrics!
Ok, I'm off to bed now. Gooooooooooood night fellow martians.

Take care!

LOVE!

p/s: Happy 15th monthsary darling! I'm sorry for the pain I caused the past months, I will continue learning to love & care for you, cuppycake. <33

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(credits to metrolyrics.com for Babylove lyrics)

hello.

the truth is like a speeding bullet...

OH BROTHER!
I'm soooo tired. Tmr is another longg day followed by Sunday then Monday is another working day! CRAZY FOOOL SARA!
Today was my first day at work in Singapore Examinations & Assestment Board(SEAB). Came about 0830h & had lunch at 1030-1130h at Tiong Bahru plaza, BK! Ate with Fazlee, Pat, Radi & Nasri.
I did nothing from 0830 until after lunch! We were required to check the PSLE papers sent by the school centres all over Singapore. In total there were about 64/74 Centres. I was allocated at Counter 6 with 4 others & 1 supervisor. We got the stacks from buses & vans, so there were alot of papers! Counterchecked them, counted them, grouped them, deliver to the respective subject rooms. There were 10 different rooms & 7 Counters in total. The first school came at about 1300h & from then, other centres started zoooming in one after another. No rest ok! *pfft*

I met my Primary Sch P6 Principal there, Ms Tang! She's the principal for St Gabriel's Primary School now. Hahhh! She was shocked that I remembered her, in fact I was shocked that I remembered her too! Handled soooo many heavy papers. All bundled together... I was perspiring! What more, the place was sooo humid & filled with sooo many people! (& papers and more papers...)
Because of some LATE principals, (so much for wanting ALL students to be punctual!) me & a few others had to stay till 1830h when we're suppose to end work at 1700h. But, its all good. Overtime pay!
Then, I'll be working again this Monday! Gahhhhh~

Tmr, I'll be going out with DSC for Raya! Meeting at 1100h @ Wdlands Dome! YAY!
Can't wait to meet all of my lovely friends in their lovely malay costumes! YIPEEE!
Its a 2 days thing, so I think I'll be sooo exhausted aft 27th Oct! Cause after today, the work was really tiring! Then, no day for rest bcs i'm working on Monday-Thursday, Friday; raya with PPS friends & Saturday; raya with QWSS friends! 28th Oct is Ina's birthday & I really wish to have a nice longgg undisturb peace & beautiful rest! I'm soooo looking forward to it! Ok luhh, im off to bed now!

Good nite!

Take care love.

***

hello!

If silence is golden, then LOUD is a diamond.

Ok, i'm soo damn tired!
Didn't really had a nice rest the past 3 days.. Been on the phone, prepared the curtains, biscuits for Raya this year & finish up sewing my dress. Yesterday, went out with the family. As usual, we went to paternal's side first, whom I'm not close with but they're a bunch of diamonds. Super loud! Eversince I was a kid, I've always been closer to maternal's side cause I always went out with my mum & I tend to meet my maternal cousins more than the other. It does feel awkward tho! But, its all gooooood~

Tears were shed when I seeked forgiveness from my 5 other immediate family members. My make up was ruin even before leaving the house! lol.
I touched up everything & head off with my family to West Coast where I met my Paternal Grandparents, Uncles/Aunties & Cousins. Grandad cooked and the fried chicken was delicious! (But I swear Fana's mother fries better chicken, better than KFC!) We had a laugh about some topic like the phonecall my uncle in Ipoh made to my mum just to ask if I ever took part in a tv programme, which was five years ago! The show was telecasted in KL & my uncle called my mum to ask. It was funny & my mum shared it with the whole family and everyone was laughing. It was all goood~
We 'beraya' before heading to my Granduncle's place. The cash flowed in, yeahh!
Luckily when we wanted to leave, my grandmother's family came to vist. The house was superrrrrrrrrrrr packed! So, we had to move out faster.

At Granduncle's place, I had lontong! It was ok, the mutton was still hard tho but the sambal chicken was fantastic!
There was a cute kiddo there, my Uncle's son. As usual, I am bynature a kid-lover! Haha. I just love kids, aren't they simply adorable?
Then, mum wanted to head on to Bukit Batok to meet her parents. So, we 'beraya' & left fo maternal grandparent's house. Once there, my youngest aunt who just gave birth to a baby girl last year was there. Sa'idah was superrrrrrrr adorable ok! I couldn't play with her cause Aunt wanted to milk her and put her to sleep. It was then, I found myself very sleepy. I wanted to catch a nap but mum keep asking me to help the kitchen! So, reluctantly I did. After awhile, I went off to the void deck with my cousin, Sara Hazirah who unfortunately had chicken pox, me & decided to sit around & chill. She has a very cute boyf! Congrats!!
Then, the smokers came out so we went in with the kids who was running around making rowdy & being diamonds!

I had a VERYYY shorrrrrrrrt nap, shorter than five minutes! Before my mum called out to make a move with Aunt Norma & her kids. We left for my mum's cousin's place, they had Rocher chocolate! Hahaha!
Watched Catwoman for half-an-hr before heading to another 2 more houses & went back. At the last house, there was 3 cats! 2 Garfield-like ones & 1 hyper cat. The kids played with the hyper cat. My elder brother & me loved the Garfield. My uncle is a teacher in my Primary Schooooooooool! lol.
The rendang in the last house was the BESTTTT! I SWEAR!

Then we headed home, counted the money, wash up & I head off to bed! Slept immedietly! hahahhh!
Mum woke me up at 9 today cause we had to get ready for Aunt Norma to pick us up to continue our jalan raya to other houses. Yay!

I'll be schooling this Tuesday to Thursday. From Friday & the whole of next week, I'll be at SEAB on attachment! $45/day! YAY! Alrite, mum's nagging, blog some other time.

Take care.
LOVE!

p.s/ I think its impossible to really get over your first love. Theres a spot in your heart reserved especially for that person, no matter how much it hurts; i think you'll always love them. GF, take a chill pill aite?

hello.

here's something,

Does your heart beat like mine? Unsteadily picking up the pace with every thought, any precious memory tied to you? I am tied to you. You are a brick attatched to a rope tethered to my foot. Yes, it is you who pulls me down fast, the bubbles swirling around me. Panick and confusion suck the air from my lungs, but it was I who jumped from the bridge. As the weight of you and my decisions pulls me down I do not regret it. Even though I cannot breath, I am tied to you and I will not let go. I will remain drowning and I will not put up a fight.

I am the one standing in front of a loaded gun. Whether you are the arm and fingers that pull the trigger or the weapon does not matter. I do not run. But when you find me in a pool of my own blood you will find a letter. It is my last word to you so that you may know my blood stained confession that could only be revealed in death, for courage was no match for rejection.

And how does your heart beat holding mine? I am the patient in the ER whose only hope is in your hands. You pulse and pulse, but you don't really mean to save me? How does it feel to have my life in your hands? With my last breath I would mutter only your name and nothing else would need to be said. The truth can be seen in my eyes. You were the death of me, but you gave me life.

Oh, goddamn! I miss you so...